Wandering Heart
Dave,
Since you did not respond to my eastern approach to wrestlings with Paul, I'm taking the discussion in a new direction.... and that is that I am a 'vagadult.'
In my wandering heart there is a vagabond who will not sit still in church and will never be an office-man. Yet in my life emerges a needed adult who must be responsible, work for a living, plan wisely, budget, stay in one place and commit to one person.
Basically, I'm asking you and anyone else to join the discussion about my wandering heart.
This topic is mysterious to me, but here are some preliminary questions:
-Why do I long to wander, adventure, explore, vagabond?
-Do a lot of people feel this way?
-Historically, have a lot of people felt this way, before they could just hop a plane to China?
-Are things like: holding a consistent job, staying in one place, not taking too many risks on your life, ... all essential ingredients in a good Christian man?
-Will this longing change or go away? (I've followed it for years. If I don't keep feeding it will it die or will I die?)
-How can I not crush my spirit when I have responsibilities that fight against vagabonding? Is there a new stage of vagabonding I can enter within the context of leading a family and having a career?
-Is being somewhat transient an acceptable mode (even if just for a while) for a full-time servant of Christ?
-Should I try to marry someone who likes to wander and wander together, or someone who is stable and will help me grow roots?
-Is it fair to take kids along for the ride with a wandering heart?
-Where does my wandering heart come from?
-Where is my wandering heart going?
That about sums up the general inquiries. Now for your comments:
Notes- by "wandering heart" I mean... well, if I have to explain it to you in detail, you probably don't have one. I can't really describe it.
